Thursday, January 30, 2014
Femininity: The Possible Key
Did anyone ever see this movie? I've been thinking about this a lot lately due to a specific FHE we had a few months ago, and I have come to this conclusion: the wicked taketh the truth to be hard.
Let me explain...
A dating coach came and spoke to our stake about techniques and tips and tricks for dating. Several of which I disagreed with completely. I became very defensive and worked up over a lot of her points and left the night completely frustrated.
I have asked myself over and over again why exactly I became so upset. And after much deliberation, soul searching, and extensive conversations with the roommate, it was determined that I was the wicked and I took the truth to be hard. :)
I didn't want to hear that I was the one doing anything wrong. I didn't want to hear that I wasn't being "feminine" enough. It's the guys! Not the girls. Not me! Am I right?!
No, Liz. You are most definitely not right.
I think too many times in dating and relationships we are so willing to point the finger and blame the other person. It's his fault. It's her fault. It's their fault. And I think the reason I had such a hard time with this FHE is because it hit me half way through that some of it is MY fault.
The biggest realization that hit me: I need to be more feminine. Don't ask me exactly what I mean by that. I'm not even sure I know. But I feel that it could be one of many keys that will open one awesome, eternal door. We shall see.
PS- Don't judge me on this post. It took 2 months and a lot of thinking to publish. :)
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Hello, 2014!
So this year I did not write a "Goodbye Year" post. Bummer for all of you who actually read this, I'm sure. ;) Instead, I decided to write a "Hello Year" post! Because holy crow, have things been happening this year!
What's up, 2014?! It's very good to see you!
For starters, I moved to San Antonio. I know, crazy! Well, if you know me and the thought process, decision process, and prayerful consideration process I put into this, then you know it really wasn't that crazy. But at the same time...CRAZY! I can honestly say without any doubt that I made the right decision and am heading towards something amazing. What amazingness exactly, I know not. But I'll let you know as soon as I figure it out.
It's awesome because a year ago my roommate Cathy and I were saying that we both had a feeling that something huge was on the horizon. That there was going to be some kind of big change coming our way, but we didn't know what it would be. So all year we've been looking and searching, and in typical girl fashion, over analyzed everything wondering, "Is this it? Could this be 'IT???'" You know, the ominous "IT". And every time, it was never IT. Then around Thanksgiving and into Christmas time, everything fell into place for me. I won't go into the rather boring details, feel free to call if you want them, but life in its not-so-subtle ways lead me to a job in San Antonio.
Never in my life would I have imagined not living in Utah or Georgia. That was always the plan. Get a degree and teach in one of those states. Now granted, the idea of a man by my side was somewhere in there too, but oh, well. Not the point. I just never thought I would be somewhere where my family wasn't. And at first that thought was very scary. Now, not so much. I've been here less than a week, and I've already made my own kind of little family. My dear friends from college, Rachel and Jared Anderson, have taken me under their wing and have been such a huge support. They helped me get out here, have helped me feel welcome, and have definitely helped me feel not so alone. Texas is a big state with a lot of people. It's definitely easy to get and feel lost in this place. Honestly, the Lord has provided where everything else has lacked. And I know He will continue to provide and strengthen when I fall short or feel weak.
I will admit this one thing. I miss people. I miss my friends. I miss my kids. I have thought about my friends and my students everyday since I left. I miss them. A lot.
Alrighty then, 2014. I have high hopes for you. Please do not disappoint me. I'm counting on you! Don't let me down!
What's up, 2014?! It's very good to see you!
For starters, I moved to San Antonio. I know, crazy! Well, if you know me and the thought process, decision process, and prayerful consideration process I put into this, then you know it really wasn't that crazy. But at the same time...CRAZY! I can honestly say without any doubt that I made the right decision and am heading towards something amazing. What amazingness exactly, I know not. But I'll let you know as soon as I figure it out.
It's awesome because a year ago my roommate Cathy and I were saying that we both had a feeling that something huge was on the horizon. That there was going to be some kind of big change coming our way, but we didn't know what it would be. So all year we've been looking and searching, and in typical girl fashion, over analyzed everything wondering, "Is this it? Could this be 'IT???'" You know, the ominous "IT". And every time, it was never IT. Then around Thanksgiving and into Christmas time, everything fell into place for me. I won't go into the rather boring details, feel free to call if you want them, but life in its not-so-subtle ways lead me to a job in San Antonio.
Never in my life would I have imagined not living in Utah or Georgia. That was always the plan. Get a degree and teach in one of those states. Now granted, the idea of a man by my side was somewhere in there too, but oh, well. Not the point. I just never thought I would be somewhere where my family wasn't. And at first that thought was very scary. Now, not so much. I've been here less than a week, and I've already made my own kind of little family. My dear friends from college, Rachel and Jared Anderson, have taken me under their wing and have been such a huge support. They helped me get out here, have helped me feel welcome, and have definitely helped me feel not so alone. Texas is a big state with a lot of people. It's definitely easy to get and feel lost in this place. Honestly, the Lord has provided where everything else has lacked. And I know He will continue to provide and strengthen when I fall short or feel weak.
I will admit this one thing. I miss people. I miss my friends. I miss my kids. I have thought about my friends and my students everyday since I left. I miss them. A lot.
Alrighty then, 2014. I have high hopes for you. Please do not disappoint me. I'm counting on you! Don't let me down!
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