Having Faith When Things Don't Make Sense

Facebook and I have a love/hate relationship. I love keeping in touch with friends and looking at people's pictures, etc. But I hate the information I see, hear, or read sometimes. 5 minutes ago, I hated it. I read a conversation on my homepage between two people I wish I hadn't read and it made me question not only my decision to go home for the summer, but Heavenly Father as well. Note to everyone: Never question Him. Period. And even if you do, He'll send someone very soon to reassure you that He's right, and you just need to follow Him.

The other day I received an answer to many prayers. My answer was to go home. So today when I saw this conversation on Facebook, I burst into tears and said to myself, "Why? Why I am going home? Why should I go home? I want to know why I'm doing what I'm doing. I want to know why I'm following God's plan. I want to know that I'm going home for a purpose and I want to know what that purpose is!" Just as I started doubting, my roommate came home and asked me what was wrong. I told her everything I had just said to myself in my head, and this was her answer:

"Liz, when God told Noah to build an ark in the middle of Jerusalem, did it make sense?"

"No."

"When God told Nephi to go back and get the plates, risk their lives, all that jazz, did it make sense?"

"No."

"When God told Joseph Smith to restore the gospel and build up a church, did that make sense?"

"No."

"Sometimes God asks us to do things that don't make sense. He asks to do things we don't want to do. But we do them because we love Him. We do them because we know, and I know you know, that something bigger, greater, and better comes from it. Amazing stuff came from all those other things. Amazing things will come from going home, if you have faith that they will."

Yep. Heavenly Father knows EXACTLY what you need, when you need it. I need to have faith when things don't necessarily make sense. :)

"I Was Here"

For a couple of years now I've had this insane desire to visit other countries and provide humanitarian aid. I want to go to places like Nicaragua, Africa, Central America, South America, wherever; and I've been thinking about it a lot lately. One day, I am going to go and do some work. I want to be a part of something huge that is beneficial to hundreds of people. Be it an ambassador, volunteer, coordinator, etc with some organization, I want to do it. I want to leave my mark, but more importantly I want to make a difference is someone else's life. I want to influence for good and I want to contribute portions of my time and life to helping others.

So in 2008 (during the Olympics) when I heard "I Was Here" by Lady Antebellum, I felt like my life's goal had just been put into song. I recently rediscovered the song in my i-Tunes library and have decided that it is the new theme song for my life. Here's the chorus:

I wanna do something that matters
Say something different
Something that sets the whole world on its ear
Wanna do something better
With the time I’ve been given
I wanna try
To touch a few hearts in this life
And leave nothing less than something that says
I was here

I absolutely love it. So here it is, my life's new theme song. :)

Gratitude

Words cannot express how grateful I am for the things I have in my life. The other day I was having interviews with the girls in my Relief Society and all of the sudden this huge surge of gratitude for them and who they are overcame me. It was was amazing. I cannot thank Heavenly Father enough for giving me this incredible opportunity.

Lately I have been having "life blues" where I just get sad about something that I don't have in my life right now. And every time it happens, I'm reminded just how much God loves me and I remember all the amazing things I do have and am grateful for. When I think of all the opportunities and all that I do have in my life, the "life blues" go away and I receive that little boost of encouragement to push on. So I wanted to make a little list of what I'm grateful for. :)

1. I am grateful for Brigham Young University - Idaho. It is truly an amazing school and my time here has been the best four years of my life up to this point.

2. I am grateful for having a job.

3. I am grateful for a family that love me and support me.

4. I am grateful for all the wonderful friends that I have who are a constant upliftment and joy in my life.

5. Ok, this one might not make any sense, but try to hear me out on this. I am grateful for all the friends I have who are getting married/are married and for those who are pregnant or have kids all ready. Why? Because I love seeing other people happy. Honestly, I thrive off of it. I cannot help but be happy when those around me are. I am SO happy that you are moving into that part of your lives, and I appreciate you letting me be a part of it. I cannot tell you how much it means to me that even though I have not reached that part in my life yet, you still love and include me in your lives. I love it and am so grateful. So, thank you. :)

6. I'm grateful for the gospel. Every little part of it. I'm grateful for the sweet peace it brings to my life when I am living they way I'm supposed to.

7. I'm grateful for my talents. They're all a work in progress, but I'm grateful that God has given me a way to express myself through music and photography.

8. I'm grateful for the little things in every day that bring a smile to face. It's all in the little things of life where I find my greatest joy.

9. I'm grateful for my car. Peter--- thank you for taking me everywhere. And yes, my car's name really is Peter. :)

10. I'm grateful for books and the ability to read. Without these two things, life would not be as fulfilling and enriching.

So, thank you. For everything.